Music love

When I was young…..ger I used to write song, silly ditties that amused me. Sad songs, happy songs, silly songs.
Somehow in life I stopped, not consciously, I just didn’t think about it till this year. Spring brought new people and circumstances into my life and I started again. It’s odd to reconnect with my old self this way.

Some happy, some sad, some downright pissed.ice been told they actually are pretty decent and I had a friend record one for me .. If I ever get the courage up maybe ill share them.. Maybe

howtofightloneliness:

Chandler Bing narrating my internal monologue.

(Source: princesconsuela)

Next time I decide to go out to see awesome punk bands on a week night … Remind me not to stay out till three and then get up for work at 530… And no I didn’t write on the bathroom wall.. It was there when I got there. Menace rocks!!!

(Source: unamusedsloth)

I didn’t say “I love you” to hear it back. I said it to make sure you knew.

Band practice rocks

Days like this

It’s days like this I am a mom failure
I have no patience
I just want my kid to be normal
And this isn’t even my kid that is supposed to have a disability.
My typical darling is pooping himself .. Again.. We took him to Drs. who told us behavioral, he’s lazy, we had him checked to make sure it’s not medical , they say it isn’t .. He claims he isn’t being lazy, he doesn’t feel it.. Well he felt it fine from the time he was 3 till he was 6. The doctors say it’s not an allergy, and his muscles in that area show no signs of abuse or of any indication that he cant feel it coming. He is looking for attention… Then why as soon as I spend more time with him it gets worse. I am a bad parent, I am at my wits end, I don’t know what to do.
Just as my work life is coming together my kid Is falling apart. My child with autism is thriving and my typical darling is either awesome caring and cute or destructive, mouthy and disrespectful.
What do I do? Just as I need to be at work so I can get a minor promotion ( until yesterday my 30,000 salary has been supporting a family of four ( I am only there 40 hours a week I am not a workaholic) and he has camp which he claims to love, his dad goes on a business trip ( trouble started before we told the kids about it) and now I can’t be at work because camp can’t keep a kid who keeps crapping himself.
My marriage is not good, like teetering in divorce but we don’t fight, but hubby and I don’t spend time together either.
I’m stuck, I’m scared, I’m tired and I am at a loss.. What do I do?

As a kid I had female friends, but in high school I would say it shifted to mostly having female friends, going thru my 20s and 30s most of my friendships were with women. Now as I approach 40 I have found I am back to having closer friends that are male. Maybe because I think of myself more male in nature. Lets not get nuts, I still have close female friendships … But maybe it’s because I have just boys it makes me realize, guys are awesome friends.

As a kid I had female friends, but in high school I would say it shifted to mostly having female friends, going thru my 20s and 30s most of my friendships were with women. Now as I approach 40 I have found I am back to having closer friends that are male. Maybe because I think of myself more male in nature. Lets not get nuts, I still have close female friendships … But maybe it’s because I have just boys it makes me realize, guys are awesome friends.

theymightbeclippy:

I MIGHT NEED* THIS

*COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY REQUIRE IMMEDIATELY


EDITED TO ADD: It’s roughly $60 USD, and it says they’ll do custom sizes, based on your measurements!

fashionofthemultiverse:

UV Glow Galaxy Print Cap Sleeve Fit and Flare by CoquetryClothing


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theymightbeclippy:

I MIGHT NEED* THIS

*COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY REQUIRE IMMEDIATELY

EDITED TO ADD: It’s roughly $60 USD, and it says they’ll do custom sizes, based on your measurements!

fashionofthemultiverse:

UV Glow Galaxy Print Cap Sleeve Fit and Flare by CoquetryClothing

Want want want want

My stepmother found these old slides from when I was a kid (1981 a uear before she died) and prior to my birth of my parents..(1967) I have maybe one picture of me with my mom…seeing me with her again… It’s awesome

acrazymomslife:

Found at a local Supermarket

acrazymomslife:

Found at a local Supermarket

My eyes have always been listed as brown … But they don’t look brown to me … What color do you think they are?

And when it’s dark, in the quiet is when I miss him most. 
Hanging out with friends from youth, the ones that still have their parents, who still have them to talk to, makes me feel alone, different, isolated. I’m lucky, I may have only had my mom for 6 years but I had my dad for 34 years. Some people aren’t so lucky… But as the anniversary of his  death looms … I dread it … That day in September I lost my dad to cancer is never far from my thoughts

And when it’s dark, in the quiet is when I miss him most.
Hanging out with friends from youth, the ones that still have their parents, who still have them to talk to, makes me feel alone, different, isolated. I’m lucky, I may have only had my mom for 6 years but I had my dad for 34 years. Some people aren’t so lucky… But as the anniversary of his death looms … I dread it … That day in September I lost my dad to cancer is never far from my thoughts

My friends rock

My friends rock